When everything important is taking a back seat to more important

I guess everyone knows that feeling when all seems OK and yet there is something hidden in the back of mind that feels a bit inconvenient, like an unspoken threat to our day to day little happiness.

It is just a feeling, nothing real that needs to be worked out at the moment. It is kind of annoying so we tend to let it sleep hoping it could sort of die. I am afraid nothing stored in subconscious will ever fade away unless it is solved. Instead, this muddle is living its own life, waiting for some impulse, prepared to pop up. When it happens many so called important things that can't never be put off are taking a back seat to the new reality. Suddenly there is much important stuff to do.
Bettina is a young woman with Swiss origins living in Australia. Sadly, she needs to cope with her grandmother's death. Her precious relative passed away only a couple of days before Bettina had moved in a new amazing apartment and seemed really happy about it. She is leaving for Switzerland for a longer time. Apparently, she has realized that some things need to be done for the sake of her family as well as for her own sake.

Lisa

My grandmother passed away a few days ago. She was very dear to me, one of the most important people in my life. She was one of the people who most influenced my life. An amazing, very spiritual, very gentle and wise person, full of love and light. She taught me so much. Her and me had a very strong bond. I cannot imagine not having her in my life anymore.

I'm dropping everything here and flying out to Switzerland tomorrow Monday for a couple of weeks. I'm feeling sad and homesick and want to spend some time with my family. I feel like I'm never there for anything- babies get born, people get married, people die, and I'm always far away. This time, I want to be there with my family, grieve with everyone and say good bye properly.

Bettina, I am so sorry for your loss. Good journey. This time you will be there as close as possible, as long as necessary.

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In the touch of her Soft wrinkled hands, In the understanding Of her twinkling eyes, In her generous, Giving spirit, In the melody of "Amazing Grace" Flowing from her sweet voice. She sings to me, And I find peace, On Grandma's porch.

Sanctuary, In the rhythm of Her rocking chair, In summer chats Over lemonade, In the protection Of her tender hug, In lessons learned That made me strong. She talks to me And I find peace, On Grandma's porch.

Sanctuary, In times gone by To be no more, In childhood memories, Though precious few, In days that I Sure miss her love. In hope she gave me All those years. I dream of her And I find peace,On Grandma's porch.

(Phillip McKenzie)