Monday, August 14, 2006

I romanticized certain things, didn't I?

I learned this new idiom a couple of days ago – “to look at the world through rose-colored glasses”. We have totally the same in Czech, there is only one tiny difference, we say “pink glasses”. I guess this idiom can match a lady originally from the USA who moved to the UK a few weeks ago following her husband who is British. This was a huge occasion for her to start blogging in order to record all the new things she was expecting to experience. Her first days seemed trully happy in her new place, she was just overwhelmed with everything new. ("I deserve the happiness I have now" - August 01, 2006)
But nothing lasts for ever. Her latest entry reflects some lack of courage and maybe homesick. I am afraid she will encounter many new things and feelings that are hard to deal with. Hopefully, her husband is able to empathize enough to help her go through all the troubles or will be a shoulder to cry on at least. She is feeling sort of lonely now, just like "Far from the madding crowd". It looks like a saying "out of sight out of mind" still works even with an internet connection. One must be really strong to find out that you have stayed alone, without friends who have turned back to you, partly deliberately, partly because you are just way too far to stay in touch. I guess all this is going to be a trial by fire for her.

“Cleaning up after 4 is a lot different than two. Endless amounts of laundry and dishes. I'm sick of doing laundry and dishes. No dishwasher really sucks. I guess I should have expected getting sick of it, but I really didn't. I didn't prepare my mind for what I was going to feel or experience. I didn't anticipate this at all. Oh, don't tell me. I romanticized certain things, didn't I?
I'm totally disconnected from my friends. Some have not emailed me at all. Some have stopped emailing me. When I called my sister last night, she acted like I was bothering her and didn't seem interested in talking to me. When I tried to tell her things going on here, she just blew me off. I guess the isolation I'm feeling is new and I never expected that. There are a few who email me a lot and I so appreciate that.
This is definitely not what I thought it would be when I moved.”


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