Life seems to be really hard when one feels alone

I have been reading blogs for most then four years and can honestly say that bloggers have been my best English teachers. As soon as I was able to understand a little, the bloggs have become my favorit “literature”. I used to read them really slowly, translating every single word, trying to understand basic grammar rules. When I found some word useful, I learned it, but not only that single word but the whole sentence. That has been my way of studying English. As you probably know I am a self-taught person.
One of my most popular blogs in those days was “tiagirl” who was describing her decision to break-up with her boyfriend after a long-term relationship as she was expected to marry him. This turning point made her pretty unhappy and one of the people who encouraged her was her close friend “nico”. Her blog was reflecting totally opposite feelings – she was just head over heals in love with her new boyfriend. After several months “tiagirl” found another guy who she eventually married. At that moment she stopped blogging. “Nico” continued so I could read about her decision to move under one roof with her boyfriend.
It happened a couple months ago when she also split up with her boyfriend. And “tiagirl” was the one who tried to comfort her. “Nico” has been living alone since her break-up and she seems to be facing some hard times right now. Her last entry is a bit depressing. Just read:

Reasons I suck right now
1. I'm always in a bad mood.
2. I can't stop eating/drinking things that are bad for me. Currently craving a ton of ricotta cheese. Why?
3. I keep too many secrets.
4. Diane has a short and I don't have time to fix her until Thursday. When I drive, my brake lights are always on. I have to pull out a fuse when I park so the battery doesn't drain. (like it did yesterday). UGH.
5. I have to call my exboyfriend to come rescue me and diagnose my car and then I feel guilty that maybe I'm just using him.
6. I have to call my other exboyfriend to help me pronounce words I've never said that he's familiar with before trivia (and rudely forget that he's very busy on Monday afternoons and is away from his phone). I'm so independent!
7. I woke up late today (10 minutes after I should be at work!) and jumped in the car braless and shoeless. I REALLY need a shower.
8. This very cute guy just asked me out. I said "maybe this weekend?" I'm really scared to date - I don't feel ready at all... although it does feel good for someone to like me. And he's shorter than me and I'm trying my best not to think about it. He just wrote "I will keep my fingers crossed" Can he be any sweeter? I think not. What is my damn problem?

There has been only one person who dropped a line - “tiagirl” of course:
Come home, live with me - you can hide here for awhile, get settled, start over. My daddy will make your car like new - no guilt! I love you.

Důvody, proč jsem právě teď k ničemu
1. Pořád mám špatnou náladu.
2. Nedokážu přestat jíst/pít věci, které jsou pro mě špatné. Momentálně toužím po tuně sýru riccota. Proč?
3. Mám až moc tajemství.
4. Diana (Diana je jméno jejího auta) má zkrat (elektrický) a já do čtvrtka nemám čas ji opravit. Když jedu, má brzdová světla jsou pořád zapnutá. Musím vytáhnout pojistku, když parkuju, takže se nevybije baterie (jak jsem ji vybila včera).
5. Musím zavolat svému bývalému příteli, aby přijel a zachránil mě a “diagnostikoval” moje auto a pak se budu cítit vinná, že ho možná prostě jen využívám.
6. Musím zavolat svému jinému bývalému příteli, aby mě pomohl vyslovovat slova, která jsem nikdy neříkala a v nichž on je zběhlý dřív než byla Trivia (a sprostě zapomenu, že on je během pondělních odpolední velmi zaměstnaný a že není na telefonu). Já jsem tak nezávislá!
7.Vzbudila jsem se dneska pozdě (10 minut poté, co jsem měla být v práci!) a skočila jsem do auta bez podprsenky a bez bot. Opravdu potřebuju sprchu.
8. Ten velmi roztomilý chlápek mě požádal, abychom si dali schůzku. Já řekla “Třeba tenhle týden?” Mám opravdu strach jít na rande. Necítm se vůbec připravená. I když mi fakt dělá dobře, že mě má někdo rád. A on je menší než já a já dělám, co můžu, abych na to nemyslela. On prostě napsal “Budu (ti) držet palce.” Může být ještě roztomilejší? Nemyslím. Co to mám za zatracený problém?

And “tiagirl”:
Přijeď domů, žij u mě – můžeš se tu na chvíli ukrýt, srovnat se, začít znova. Můj taťka ti udělá auto jako nové – žádný pocit viny (že bude pracovat ne tvém autě). Mám tě ráda.

I guess you understand more now why I so like reading some blogs. They are both emotional and educational. And they say when emotions are involved you can remember more. Thanks to “tiagirl” and „nico“ my English got a bit better.