You have some serious problem, haven't you?

When I have a problem without a solution and don't need it to solve it immediately I just push it into back of my mind. Then I pretend like that issue doesn't exist. I know my subconscious can figure it out sooner or later, considering all pros and cons, like a computer but also working with all the emotional levels that are important for me. One day I would wake up (this process ends usually in the morning just after opening my eyes) and I know exactly what to do. The funny thing is that I have the strong urge to follow through with it straightaway and so I just do. After days, weeks and sometimes months of inactivity I suddenly start acting like crazy in some hectic but not chaotic way.
Unfortunately, my subconscious has also qualities that I am not so happy with. Some of my issues have been stuck in the back of my mind probably for ever. I would like to forget them but it looks like I will be reminded of them not only after opening my eyes and moreover be forced to act like a fool sometimes. What to do when out of the blue I get the urge to do something that I know is stupid (stupid for myself)? I just have to. Maybe because I wish I could get this (well, get her) out of my mind but in fact I don't want to. My subconscious is just listening to my true self.
The funny (well, not so funny) thing is that these hidden and unsolved issues are able to bubble up unexpectedly where you wouldn't expect them to. Once I had some problem with my butt, just couldn't sit properly and no doctor could find the reason. Everything looked OK, all those x-rays and blood tests ans scans, no one knew what the real cause of the pain in my ass was. Till one experienced physiotherapist looked at me and – she didn't ask me, she just said “You have some serious problem, haven't you?” I really had something that made me feel unhappy for many many months even thought I tried to ignore it. But I coudn't fool my subconscious into thinking that I am pretty happy. My butt was just a warning, a signal that something was wrong. I totally changed my way of living in those days, started working as hard as never before. This helped so I was able to sit myself down again without any physio. But thinking of it now I am not sure if I only didn't push that trouble deeper into the back of my mind. One would be surprised what “gems” are lurking in their subconscious.
Maybe I should have been more impulsive in those days and listen more to my urge to do some particular thing. Like a young woman from New Zealand who was pondering about her urges (and became an inspiration for this entry). I guess her urges are just the mirror of her subconscious. She is trying to persuade herself that she is not “a particularly impulsive person”, but I guess she is. In a lovely way.

Urges
I'm not a particularly impulsive person, but sometimes I get urges to do something silly, out of the ordinary, spontaneous.
The other day I really wanted to go and get my hair cut off into a spikey crop, dye it platinum blonde and be a rock chick. I haven't had short hair in years, probably 6 or 7, and I remember how much a pain in the arse it was to upkeep. But I reckon a platinum spikey crop would rock. I was almost at the hairdressers LOL. But I know my hairdresser would've talked me out out of it.
I bumped into an old boyfriend I haven't seen since university and Politics 101, way back in 1992. He was with his wife and he introduced me to her. As I was smiling and saying hello, I had this urge to blurt out to her "your husband and I had sex in the university library, twice!". I clamped my mouth shut, just in case the words decided to come out. In the past, these urges have resulted in me and my best friend flashing our boobs in a photo. Going topless at a beach in France (hey, everyone else was), getting a tattoo, moving to Portugal, booking a last minute holiday to Fiji and dragging my sister along with me, eating horse steak, eating sparrow, holding a cobra, dancing in the rain, flying from London to New York for a dirty weekend and not to mention the myriad of impulse buy items of clothing, shoes, bags etc LOL.
Sometimes I wish I could be more spontaneous. I do try, it's just not that easy trying to organise it into my schedule LOL.